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19 November 2009 @ 04:37 pm
Went to the Doctor's this afternoon and the Doctor said the reason why I am getting chest pains and dizzyness when I stand up is because of the Propranolol. Also the fact that I wasnt drinking enough water and eating the right foods (I was reducing the amount of fats and calories I have in my diet to pratically the smallest as possible). So I have to come off the Propranolol off completely. I take the Propranolol for my anxiety, because I do suffer from high anxiety levels, especially during the dark and cold months. I was taking 40mg tablets three times a day. I'm worried that my anxiety levels will go back up again.

Anyway on a more positive note I can show you this:

18 November 2009 @ 09:50 pm

Well just come back from Pizza Hut. Went out with a few friends to celebrate a birthday. The food was pretty good. I had this pasta bake for main course which was pretty yummy, and for dessert I had chocolate fudge cake with vanilla ice cream. Anyway have booked a Doctor's for tomorrow afternoon, since I over-slept this morning and missed my Doctor's appointment at 8:40am. I am really looking to my 12 inch Eleventh Doctor figure a friend of mine on Gallifrey Base made. He placed it in the post on Monday. The picture of it is here:

Am looking forward to the Children In Need Doctor Who preview clip on Friday.

10 November 2009 @ 06:36 pm

I am getting a screen-accurate replica of the Question Mark jumper being made for me by a group buy on the Gallifrey Base forum.  All I need it to collect to make the costume complete is:

A pocket watch
Decent screen-accurate replica of the Seventh Doctor's trousers (1987-89)
Another smokers hankerchief
Two toned wingtip brogues (brown and cream)

05 February 2009 @ 09:33 am
I thought I would start another one of these polls again.  People's opnions might have changed since last time.
Poll #1343985 Who's your favourite Doctor?

Who's your favourite Doctor?

William Hartnell
Patrick Troughton
Jon Pertwee
Tom Baker
Peter Davison
Colin Baker
Sylvester McCoy
Paul McGann
Christopher Eccleston
David Tennant
Mine of course if Sylvester McCoy.  I love his portrayal of the Doctor the best.  In second place comes Patrick Troughton and in third place is Colin Baker.  But out of the two most underrated Doctor's (C.Baker and McCoy) who do you think is the most underrated?  I think...McCoy is.  Alot of people are very keen to listen to Colin's Big Finish audios, and he has been chosen as the best Big Finish Doctor.

Poll #1343986 Which Doctor is more underrated?

Which Doctor is more underrated?

Colin Baker
Sylvester McCoy

12 November 2008 @ 07:25 am

I was wondering if any of my friends could produce an sort of Seventh Doctor userpics for my LJ and also on forums that I post on?

23 June 2008 @ 01:14 am
I did write this on the Sylvester McCoy Appreciation Society forum, but Lilly thought it best I post it here instead.  Here is what I wrote:

I have been suffering from mental illness since I was about 7 really. I had ADHD when young and was prescribed ritalin. I then went into phyrisatric care as an inpatient in Aug 1998. I left in December and went to 2 childrens homes until February 2002. When I left care I didnt need to take medication anymore and I felt so much better about myself. But on November 28th 2002 is when my recent illness started.

I have fears about harming people and it is in fact one of my main symptoms of my OCD. Its also one of the reasons I find it hard to work. Aty one point in my life I couldnt eat with a knife and fork, I can now though. I still have these anxeities, every day. And then there would be the panic attacks. When I first got the illness in Nov 2002 I started throwing up food. I couldnt eat very much at all. I think this was due to me being nervous and worrying that I would harm someone. I still HATE sharp knives. It even go to points where I used yto live there used to be this Army Surplus shop and obviously in there they would sell swiss army knives. Well I would get anxious that I would go in there, buy one and attack people with it. I had a problem like this when on hoilday in Zante, on my own. I was worried I would go out to the shops, buy a knife and harm people with it. This got me so upset. I really wanted an emergency flight back home. I also worry when I'm on a plane that I'm going to lose control and open the emergency exit or smash one of the glass windows.
I have this HUGE fear that I may lose control when around people. This also means I worry about sexually abusive people in public. Also when I pick up pencils, and pens I worry about stabbing people with the point. I used to shave with an electric razer, but now can shave with a gillette mach 3 turbo, which does the job alot better. I am going through alot of pain. Not many people in my family can understand that. I have one friend which makes me feel bad about myself. He once said

"There you are George getting everything practically paid for you, and I have to work my butt off. Maybe I should fake being depressed and get medication. Then I'll be on benifits."

This is really hurt me. I feel very guilty about living off benifits, but its not my fault I've got this illness. I was also hurt him thinking im faking being depressed. I feel very alone in how I feel.

I was having Therapy for my OCD on Mondays, but I found it differcult to motivate myself to get there and back. This has now ended.

I myself have depression as well as OCD. The place where I am living at, is for people with Disablities. I myself have Aspergus Sydrome and so do many others that live where I am living. My family hate me living there. I today had a converstion with my sister on msn, and she has now blocked me off msn and deleted me off Facebook. The reasons why I don't see my family very much is:

Mother: She lives in a villiage called Little Downham, the same villiage I used to live in (not same house) when I lived on my own between April 2002 - May 2004. I don't like going back to that villiage, because it gives me bad memories, from when I used to live there, plus in 2003, I was very ill indeed (mentally). Also the fact that my mum gets drunk every night is depressing to watch. She isnt what you would call a nice drunk. She gets moody and aggressive and very emotional.

Father: A total snob. He didn't let me or my sister come to his second wedding back in March 2003, because his bride to be didnt want us there. When I do see him, he doesn't really listen to what I have to say, most of it goes over his head. I don't see him often, because me and him don't get on that well.

: Well me and my sister are total opposites. She thinks I should wear different clothes which will enable me to get more friends (ok, so I wear trousers more instead of jeans..big deal). She doesn't really understand my mental illness and thinks I live in a mad house. She is a total opposite to me.

(Mothers side): I've never had all that much contact with them. I see them on special occasions though.

(Fathers side): I see him on special occasions, and do phone him up once in a blue moon. He though wants to hear from me on a more regular basis like every week, which I find is too much for me.

I myself feel very lonely. And my family wonders why I don't spend lots of time with them.
23 June 2008 @ 01:10 am
Well guys I have moved.  I didnt want to be known as professortinkle anymore.  Welcome to my new livejournal.